The video draws a story about a mental dilemma, the protagonist is trying to escape by adopting the roles and forms of different animals. After several failures she has to accept her own limitations in order to be able to continue her journey.
I use real encounters with animals as metaphors and a frame for the story based on my personal reflections. The name ‘Self Portrait With a Deer’ refers to a photograph which is used as the title of the video. In addition of visual elements, both deal with the connection to wild animals. On the picture I´m holding a deer, on the video a deer represents fear.
Video was shot on the location of Kunstraum Bethanien in Berlin on April 2011.
Duration: 10:48 min
Shooting format: HDV 1080/25p
Camera: Tiago Bartholo
Sound: John Blue
Advisor: Simo Kellokumpu
Else: Saana Inari
Thanks to John Holten for helping with the translation from Finnish to English.